I’m eating my usual salad, and the cauliflower reminds me of peanuts.
Today has been very stressful. I was waiting for results on a purchase. Surprise (sarcastic), it got delayed and added road blocks. Because I used to turn to food during stress, I’m now trying to avoid it.
Today I think I left eating too long. The start of a migraine was peaking through, my stomach was growling and Snicker Joe was starting to rear his ugly head. On top of that I’m a little extra emotional due to TOM. By the time I started to have lunch I was boarder line crying, or wanted to throw my monitor across the room. I didn’t think that would go to well, seeing my review is next week. I was afraid to start the eating process to not have to fight stopping eating. But I was so angry and sad with a headache; I decided to start to eat. The emotions are just starting to fade, as I finish the salad, and surprisingly I do currently not want to eat more. It is actually the opposite, I hate that I had to eat in the first place to feel less edgy.
When did food go from a source of comfort to hatred? I’m sure this will pass; it is just annoying at the moment. Hopefully soon I will have balance towards food in general.
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